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Haven’t updated this blog for couple months. To all my beloved friends out there who haven’t seen me for a while, here’s what I’ve been doing:
- Going to art class every week
- Piano practice
- Play with Christian
- Watching top chef
- Lots of reading
Here’s what I am about to do this coming week:
- Start to work on my painting
- Experimenting with the lemon tart and panna cotta recipes that I found online at the David Lebovitz site
- More piano practice
- Order a bunch of books from Amazon
My skin is so shitty now coz I go to bed real late these days. Must sleep early tonight.
Enjoy the moment. Breezy. Fragrance in the air. Sunshine. I am ready for anything that comes along.
A perfect day to play “the show” by Lenka.
I get frustrated when I can’t totally be myself. There’s a particular situation that constantly stirs up my ill feeling and I don’t know how to handle it. I don’t wanna hurt anyone’s feeling but if I chosse to express how I truly feel, things might get ugly. This constant struggle to break free from all this, versus staying quiet and pretend everything is ok is making me sick emotionally. I wanna run from it because I don’t know what to do. I am still looking for a way out.
Million pieces of lego. Put them together to create me. Take them apart, take away some pieces, add some new ones…a new me has emerged. So which one is real and true? Life will run its course. Follow your gut feeling and it will take you to places that you could never have imagined. How did I end up here? Which road will I take? Time will tell. The past is history, the future is unknown and the present is PRESENT. Swim in the sea of adventure without fear.
PLAYFUL
1. Reading books instead of e-books on the net.
2. Painting instead of digital art.
3. Wood instead of plastic.
4. Real flowers instead of fake/plastic flowers.
5. Personal written invitation instead of evite.
6. Films instead of digital camera.
One thing that I really really want which is anything but low tech: all the electronic gadgets/appliances without cords. Cords, especially when they hang out in groups, really irritates me.
Piece by piece I put them back together
gently…who knows how fragile it is
It becomes whole again
but it’s not the same
Sometimes I don’t even notice the scar
Sometimes I think I am stronger than I really am
Sometimes I wish it’d never been broken…
The past 4 months has been a roller coaster ride for me. It’s been 4 months since I got pregnant and the first 3 months was rough. Nausea was a major issue and I always wanted to puke. It was a period of loneliness too because I felt sick and antisocial. Luckily M has been caring and supportive and he tried his best to make me feel better. In those 3 months I educated myself about pregnancy by reading books and surfing the net. Now I have a better idea of what goes on in my body. I started to feel more uplifting in th 4th month because there’s no more nausea and I could share the news with my friends and families.
Joop was the first person to know about my pregnancy besides M. She was very excited about it…maybe more excited than me. Thanks for your care and your lovely gift. I think you have matured a lot the last couple years and sometimes you acted like an older sister, instead of the younger haha.
UC: Joop told me you thought I wasn’t interested in your play. I think my reaction might have misled you because I still wasn’t feeling very well the last time I saw you, so I wasn’t sure if I could make it. On April 6th I didn’t come because my doctor told me to stay home and rest. I heard that the play’s a big success….congratulations! I am very happy for you. =)
M: I know I’ve been quite emotional so thanks for your patience and understanding. I also think it’s really sweet that you bought that book. It shows you are really involved in my pregnancy and that I am not alone.
By the way I am in the year of the “Hanged Man” (tarot talk 
), which means this year my life is on suspension. I will try to embrace it and stay positive. Now that my tummy is getting bigger I am really starting to realize how crazy this is…a life growing inside me.
PS: Joop did you finish reading “The Book Thief”? I just finished it yesterday and the ending made me cry. Not sure if it’s partly due to my hormone haha.
yes bubi this puppy is super cute.
Today 2 buttons of mine were pushed simultaneously!!
1. People who don’t question authority.
2. People who abuse their authority.
That’s all. grrrrrrrrrrrrr
a smile on your face when you wake up next to me
words of encouragement when things go wrong
embrace my flaws and imperfection
believe in me even though I can’t be understood
comfort me when I am sick
have the courage to be honest
refuse to take the road of deceit
good things don’t come easy
cherish the little moments of joy
don’t hide your imperfection
you are not perfect, but I love you…
